I am soooo GOTDAMNN ~PISSED~!!! We are on the bus when some paranoid black militant starting spitting mess about how MEXICANS are going through gang initiation by killing black women, men and children so that they can steal our identities and bring their relatives here from Mexico!!! IN FRONT OF MY KID!!! And MiniMe is sitting there HORRIFIED asking me is that really true? WTF DUDE? Im all 4 bein down with the cause but dont terrify my 6 YEAR OLD KID!!!! PLEASE AND THANK YOU!!!!! And when I asked him if he could not say such scary things in front of a small child he got the nerve to get worse and started arguing with me!!! again... WTF???? Talking bout the kids need to know AND hear the truth! dahayelll??? You don't go around scaring little kids!!!!! I NEED TO GET OFF THE FREAKING BUS!!!! IT IS GETTING WORSE AND WORSE WITH EACH PASSING YEAR!!! Dear God: Im trynna be patient and wait for You to reveal my destiny... but can You do it sooner than later??? Pleeeeze?????

How I learned to mind my own BusinesS...I was walking past the mental hospital the other day. All the patients were shouting, '13..13..13.' The fence was too high to see over, but I saw a little gap in the planks, so I looked through to see what was going on.....Some crazy person poked me in the eye with a stick! Then they all started shouting '14,14,14'..

Ladiesssssssssss.... do you know how to listen???

Ladiessssss... so you know how to listen to ur spouse? I am the first one to admit that I have/had a listening problem. Back in the day, I would never listen to a significant other cuz I thought they were trying to control me. Long time ago... i was with a dude and we were feeling each other very quickly and pretty hard. Then one day he dropped me like a hot potato. My offense? i didn't listen to him.
I did something he specifically asked me not to do and I was too young and dumb to realize that it was for my own good and he was like if she doesn't listen to me now...will she ever???? Now it took YEARS for me to get that lesson, but I appreciated it after getting wtih Mister. the lesson that I learned is that it is IMPERATIVE to listen to your man knowing he is protecting you from what he perceives to be harmful and for your own good and you have to have FAITH that his intentions are good.  Now i say I realize later that it helped me when I got to Mister because  I KNEW that he meant me no good and that all of his advice/instructions was laced with manipulation. The lesson that I have recently learned is that I have the discernment to know the difference.

Watched Robin Givens on Oprah and what I got from it is what I experienced when I spoke of what Misterr did to me. Just because a woman has a tough as nails exterior or better yet is a so called BIG GURL and some1 comes along n rocks her foundation as she knows it does not mean that FEAR can't make her still nor does it mean we share in the blame. DAMN stop judging!!!!

Sumffin on my mind lately b4 I go off 2 work *again*. Ive witnessed how relationships including my own have unfolded b4 my very eyes N nothin peturbs me more than to see 1 person givin n givin N getting nothin N return, or shall I say not gettin what they may most need.2 see some1 givin N givin,willing 2 go 2 the ends of the earth 4 this person 4 the sake of lovin that person that much N not get half of that back is heart breakin 2 watch. You gotta learn when to quit. I can only wish and hope that someone will love me that much because I will surely return that love and I am now optimistic that that will happen for me. Have a good day folks!!

It's Monday....

Good Murrrning Fam!! Happy Monday all as Im perched back up on my cloud and looking at life through my rose tinted anxiously waiting to go to work! Got alot to say this morn.. so bear with me. 1st, thanx to all who stopped by (on facebook ya'll kinda forgot about me over here on the Ply LOLOL) and gave me birthday love, it was much appreciated! this weekend was a good weekend finished with me finally joinin a church yesterday.  Those of you who have been following me for a while know i have been searching for a church home for some years cuz I knew I have been needing to be fed, I just couldn't find the right nourishment. I had a moment of self doubt and sadness on Saturday, but I am human and I am good for kicking myself for bad choices that I made, but at least I can say... I learned from my mistakes.... as I was told... gotta keep looking for the good in everything that happens, and I am getting better at it. My profound moment for yesterday, which literally had me in tears is when the minister said... "Sometimes we get caught up in our own selfish moments and woes that we forget about those that need prayer more than us." As Oprah says.. that was my AHA moment. it can always be worse. Yes...I have been told repeatedly that it can always be worse, but I felt like he was specifically calling me SELFISH and that is something I fight hard not to be and I was like UNH UNH that ain't me!!! So we were challenged to "dare the devil to try and weigh me down with NOTHINGNESS." and that is my personal challenge... I am daring the devil. LOL people's harmful words are NOTHING to me anymore. My sincerity was doubted yesterday about my so called "spiritual" moments, I am not trying to impress anyone on here nor do I have ulterior motives. I am just trying to grow, be awakened and arise to a new and better me. Change starts from within. I have no problem with changing, cuz we all have room to grow and I have no problem admitting when I am wrong. That is all. Nothing else.

How Deeply I Need You - Shekinah Glory Ministry

Good Murrrning! Off today on this Manic Monday!!! MiniMe is in a straight PANIC crying and acting a damn fool cuz she dont like what I picked out for piture day!!! Already this drama??? geesh she is only 6!!! talkin bout she has always worn a dress 2day...sowwy i didnt buy you any fall dresses this year!!!! The prisoners dont run the prison DAMMIT!!!!! THEY JUST DONT RUN THE DAMN PRSION!!!!!!! THIS IS NOT...I REPEAT...THIS IS NOT A DEMOCRACY!!!!!!!

you ever get that dreaded question from the opposite sex as to why you are single??? they never seem to quite comprehend why you are...u so pretty, smart, funny, blah blah blah.. but then.. after awhile... they too pull out... stop calling, blah blah blah.... dont u just wanna pick up the phone and ask.. now tell me.... why do you think I am single??? LOLOL