Good Murrrning Fam!! Happy Monday all as Im perched back up on my cloud and looking at life through my rose tinted anxiously waiting to go to work! Got alot to say this morn.. so bear with me. 1st, thanx to all who stopped by (on facebook ya'll kinda forgot about me over here on the Ply LOLOL) and gave me birthday love, it was much appreciated! this weekend was a good weekend finished with me finally joinin a church yesterday. Those of you who have been following me for a while know i have been searching for a church home for some years cuz I knew I have been needing to be fed, I just couldn't find the right nourishment. I had a moment of self doubt and sadness on Saturday, but I am human and I am good for kicking myself for bad choices that I made, but at least I can say... I learned from my mistakes.... as I was told... gotta keep looking for the good in everything that happens, and I am getting better at it. My profound moment for yesterday, which literally had me in tears is when the minister said... "Sometimes we get caught up in our own selfish moments and woes that we forget about those that need prayer more than us." As Oprah says.. that was my AHA moment. it can always be worse. Yes...I have been told repeatedly that it can always be worse, but I felt like he was specifically calling me SELFISH and that is something I fight hard not to be and I was like UNH UNH that ain't me!!! So we were challenged to "dare the devil to try and weigh me down with NOTHINGNESS." and that is my personal challenge... I am daring the devil. LOL people's harmful words are NOTHING to me anymore. My sincerity was doubted yesterday about my so called "spiritual" moments, I am not trying to impress anyone on here nor do I have ulterior motives. I am just trying to grow, be awakened and arise to a new and better me. Change starts from within. I have no problem with changing, cuz we all have room to grow and I have no problem admitting when I am wrong. That is all. Nothing else. How Deeply I Need You - Shekinah Glory Ministry
And as for my actual birthday... an old high school friend took MiniMe and I out bowling and then to dinner. MiniMe out scored me twice. LOLOL damn shame... but my excuse is that she had bumpers that came up for her turn! LOLOL
ReplyDeleteLove when people make a plan and stick to it!!!! She was determined to get me out for my birthday and mind you I hadn't seen her since 1988! LOLOL
ReplyDeleteOh damn...I missed your birthday...sorry about that...Happy Belated Birthday Girl!!!
ReplyDeleteKudos to you for finding a church home and getting more in touch with your spirituality! There is nothing wrong with that at all!
You have to remember that anytime we try to better ourselves, there will always be those in our lives who will try to keep us down...that is their mission...that is what they are used to when it comes to you, so they don't want you to change, otherwise they have nothing bad to say about you when you do! You know my motto...fuck'em & feed'em uncooked steel-cut oatmeal!
You are on the right path for your life and for your child...the doubt & fear is normal...and if it wasn't there...you would think something was wrong! Go ahead and embrace where you are...and look forward to where you will wind up! There is nothing wrong with making a move in the right direction!
Don't let the naysayers bring you down...and if nothing else...pray for their health, wealth, and happiness...that should keep them at bay for a while!
I'll still be praying and pulling for you over here...and you get to work over there...and I'll see ya at the finish line sweetie! I'm soooooo happy for you!
((HUGS))
You look hawt.
ReplyDeleteI saw your birthday in my calendar thingo and I was actually going to be organised and wish you a happy birthday, but then life got in the way.
CURSES!!!!