The Cycle of Domestic Abuse...

...almost always start when the now woman was a child.. she is typically one who was raised in an abusive and unloving home.. where pain and suffering equates being loved....

I remember when I was in the throes of dealing with Mister. Moms calls out of the blue in tears apologizing for not showing me what love is.. she felt that i was with Mister cuz I didnt know what love should really feel like.. how love should not hurt.. she knew I didnt know what love should feel like because the only love that she showed was the kind of love that hurts...

and being the abused child that i was.. I didnt want her to feel bad for the abuse I suffered at her hands so I said noo thats not it.. thats not it.. just to make her feel better...

My mother disowned me today.. disowned me by proclaiming our so called mother/daughter relationship as being over..

One thing I can verily say that abusers have one thing in common: and thats the ability to turn the tables and make YOU feel bad for the abuse you suffered through at their hands...

How she gonna disown ME? Im not understanding.. Its downright hysterical when you get down to it...

Disowned because I wanted to go to my class at church on saturday before a planned outing.. and I stood my ground.. and how dare I do such...

Im not mad.

nor surprised.

nor disappointed.

nor hurt.

but simply in AWE of the unmitigated gall to disown ME after how she has treated me throughout my whole entire life.

Just.

Wowwwwww.