Monday, November 8, 2010

Love the HELL Out of 'em.... AGAPE

I sought counseling yesterday in regards to my mother... It is something to have to confess with your mouth (or email) that your heart is hardening and you are having feelings of hatred towards your mother. But Ive learned that to confess that which you are ashamed of means that the devil can't hide... The devil loves and will hide in your shame and he will manifest that shame in you... However, I was nervous as virgin in a whore house!! smh LOLOL

So anywaysss....

I was told that it was alright if I chose to distance myself from my mother & protect my daughter from her toxicity.. I can still obey the 5th commandment and Honor & Respect her from a distance and that being a child of God includes loving those who are our adversaries. I have to find the strength thru the God that is in me to just keep loving her.. Praying for her... I am commanded to do so...

So the next time she comes with foolishness I have to find a way to tell my mother that she is sick and needs to get help. I have to find a way to tell her without being LISA and by using the Spirit of God that is within me to say I am going to pray for your deliverance. And to say I command your demons to leave you in the name of Jesus. I have to fully realize that she is sick.. realize with my spirit and not my flesh. My flesh tells me that crazy people play sane everyday and that in so many ways they make a conscious choice to be that way. I can no longer think that way, but I have to allow myself to be guided by my spirit. The spirit that is within me that contains my joy, love, peace, the love of God, gratitude, deliverance and all other things that are so good and lovely.

The joy of the Lord IS MY STRENGTH and I shall no longer be swayed.

I was given some versus that in less than 24 hours time has become my life line. I have to stop seeking a fleshly love and desire a love that nourishes my spirit.

God's Love & Ours 1 John 4:7-21 (NIV)

Beloved, let us love one another, for love comes from God. Everyone who loves has been born of God and knows God. Whoever does not love does not know God, because God is love. this is how God showed his love among us: he sent his one and only Son into the world that we might live through him. This is love: not that we love God, but that he loved us and sent his Son as an atoning sacrifice for our sins. Beloved, since God so loved us, we also ought to love one another. No one has ever seen God; but if we love one another, God lives in us and his love is made complete in us. We know that we live in him and he is us, because he has given us of his Spirit. And we have seen and testify that the Father has sent his Son to be the Savior of the world. If anyone acknowledges that Jesus is the Son of God, God lives in him and he in God. And so we know and rely on the love God has for us. God is love. Whoever lives in love lives in God, and God in him. In this way, love is made complete among us so that we will have confidence on the day of judgment, because in this world we are like him. There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love. We love because he first loved us. If anyone says, "I love God" yet hates his brother, he is a liar. For anyone who does not love his brother, whom he has seen cannot love God, whom he has not seen. And he has given us this command: Whoever loves God must also love his brother.

Not only love her.. I also have to have faith in God that He is a miracle worker and will heal my mother and our relationship.. Still not holdin my breath.. but I still gotta have that faith and I gotta admit.. thats a hard one... but I have to be obedient.

Faith in the Son of God 1 John 5:1-12

Everyone who believes that Jesus is the Christ is born of God, and everyone who loves the father loves his child as well. This is how we know that we love the children of God: by loving God and carrying out his commands. This is love for God: to obey his commands. And his commands are not burdensome, for everyone born of God overcomes the world. This is the victory that has overcome the world, even our faith. Who is it that overcomes the world? Only he who believes that Jesus is the Son of God. Thisis the one who came by water and blood-- Jesus Christ. He did not come by water only, but by water and blood. And it is the Spirit who testifies, because the Spirit is the truth. For there are three that testify: The Spirit, the water and the blood and the three are in agreement. We accept man's testimony, but God's testimony is greater because it is the testimony of God which he has given about his Son. Anyone who believes in the Son of God has this testimony in his heart. Anyone who does not believe God has made him out to be a liar, because he has not believed the testimony God has given about His Son. And this is the testimony: God has given us eternal life, and this life is in his Son. He who has the Son has life, he who does not have the Son of God does not have life.

~Be Blessed~


  1. "A virgin in a whore house" Okayyyy????
    Yes you should pray and pray and pray some more that your relationship with your mother is mended and all becomes well continue to have faith and believe in the word of God and continue practicing that 5th commandment I respect my mother and I am doing my best to obey the 5th commandment, I honor my father from a distance. We have no relationship period- no birthdays, fathers day, thankgiving, christmas. I 'll be shocked if that man knows when my birthday is or how old I am. It hurts I'll be lying if I said it didnt but I have faith and I believe in the word of God that if it was ment to be then it would have happened. Some relationships arent ment to be, so just continue to pray about it and I pray that all ends well after all we only get one mother, but God has the power to put women in our life that can be mother figures.

  2. Yes... If God deems it to be so than it will happen. I 100% agree with that statement. And I have had many mother figures in my life for which I am eternally grateful.

    Excuse my colorful language... Im working on that. well.. kinda... its part of my humor.

  3. No problem it was kinda funny" as nervous as a virgin in a whore house" HaHa Hehe whay would a virgin be in a whore house?

    Yep if and only if it is ment to happen than it will thats my belief its his lost not mine! me and my mother didnt and dont always agree our relationship use to be 40% bad and 60% good but know as I am growing we're improving and now I believe we're at 80% good and 20% bad but with time hopefully we'll be at a total 100%

  4. so ummmm who is this??? I forgot to post my disclaimer in my blog and asking people to tell me who they are!!

  5. u didnt even try 2 guess

  6. i dont know who this is!! Lakwanza??

  7. noooo this is Laporshia cute name tho who is Lakwanza??? sounds like I've heard the name before

  8. Laporshia??? who is that??? do you have a nickname??

  9. im not a religious person... n'or am i spiritual... i very very VERY rarely look for a higher power to help me thru things in my life... i just get on with shit on my own, and that works for me most days.... so i dont understand how the way you are dealing with your mother works... but hey, if it works for you, then more power to you.

    if she was MY mother... ten commandments be damned... i'd tell her that she is nuts, and needs help. straight up with NO CHASER!

    but *shrugs* thats me.