A Late QOTD: Why am I soooo SPOOKY?

I always make light of the fact and fun of myself that I am spooked to death at the prospect of  dating a man.  People always say that I should be more forward when it comes to dealing with the opposite sex.  More so, that I should approach a man first.

Soooooooo not gonna happen.

For me, approaching a man is the equivalent of saying here, take me nowwww I am desperate.

So then, I have the stare downs happening when I am on the bus or train. I look, he looks, I look away. LMAOOO I look again, he looks, I look away. And I wonder, how many opportunities am I passing up cuz of my irrational??? fear of not approaching a man first.

So then, lets say he does speak first. I will speak back. we may then hold a conversation and then he will offer me his number and then I am like ummmmm noooooooooo, I aint calling you, but.... you can call me. LOLOLOLOL

So then they think I am playing games. and I am not. They just don't know the fear they (men) hold over me. I mean, it is like pulling teeth. I really do feel sorry for them. LOLOLOL Some try, but one hint of the smell of bullshit and i am OUT!

For every brick they take down, I put up three. Seriously. A man would have to have the patience of Job just to make it to first base.

Seriously.

Sooo, I try the upfront approach. I am a firm believer in laying all the cards on the table face up.  *here* this is what you are dealing with.

You have no idea how many times I am accused of playing games, but really???

I am painfully shy, especially when dealing with the opposite sex.  I don't believe in calling a man. I won't chase a man. I will especially drop a mofo with the quickness when I hear "just call me later" continuously. Whats with that anywaysss?? Why I always gotta keep calling you? A man isn't coming to my house, I have a child present and protecting my image in the eyes of my daughter and showing a good example is of the upmost importance. When I say I am not sleeping with you that is what I mean. Not until I know you better. Thats not unreasonable is it??

Then men say I am unapproachable.  That i always look so serious.  Like I have an attitude. and if you step to me wrong, you gonna see that attitude. *sighsss* I can't help my size. I know it is intimidating for most, and for the rest, they think I am an easy mark. pfffffft

So my question for you dear friends is how do I get past my fear of men without compromising the VERY old fashioned values that I hold dear and without running for those ever loving hillssssss???